I have not been around much lately. I miss you all and think about you often.
Rocks clicked beneath my feet, each one a tiny reminder that I was alive, present and accounted for. The vow to continue a steady pace without looking back would be broken numerous times, bringing shame and despair. Inspecting branches, grassy areas and fields that spilled out onto the trail were now part of the new walking routine. A carefree bush became a supposed breeding ground for squirrels, raccoons and insects, all a threat to my existence.
This was the path I had taken for the past 7 years and each turn was well known to me, but somehow things had morphed and danger lurked. A dog barked in the big blue house, he jumped frantically as if to warn of impending danger. I shuddered and contemplated returning home to relative solace and yet a lingering determination remained. I watched the road with great caution and anticipation, scanning both front and then back, breaking my promise to just walk.
I compelled myself to breathe, to take in the sprawling fields of green and brown dotted with red barns, grain silos and a single tractor. The sky was a pure blue, a painted backdrop to this scene of tranquility. A rush of warm and soft emotion prompted tears that lodged in the creases of tired eyes. Safety and assurance felt like melting snow that turned into soft green grass, the scent of lilacs and honeysuckle played in my mind pushing it to recall forgotten days. The lawn swing creaked as it joyfully rose to the sky, melted popsicles stained my lips a vivid orange.
Lovely 😊
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Thank you so much
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http://wp.me/s7BbJN-darkness hope you like my work. Do visit.
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I will!
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Beautifully written Lynn. Keep going.
Leslie
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Thanks, I will try
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🙂
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You are loved and needed and beautiful and so very talented Lynn❤️❤️😘😘
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That helps allot! I am trying! xoxo
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Nicely done, Lyn. Your walk thoughts turned to bright sunshine & lovely flowers. 🌺🌷🌸 Christine
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Thanks Christine! I am trying!
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Keep walking, writing, and making images Lynn!
I’m glad to know you’re hanging in there, and taking it one. step. at. a. time! Those little pebbles are the stepping stones to your stronger comeback! Sending good thoughts, and hugs your way! xxx
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Thanks so very much Deborah! xoxoxo I will keep trying
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Glad you are still striving on that steady pace.
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Thanks dear Peggy!
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Wonderful as always! Hope you are well.
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Thanks so much! I am working on it x
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That was so poignant, Lynn! It touched me deeply 💖
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Thank you dear Erika! IT has been a struggle to just take my daily walk but I am trying to keep doing things and keep moving. xoxoxo
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I can only imagine how hard this can be but I admire you even more for hanging in. You have a great family and we all are with you too😘💖
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Thanks so much Erika! xx
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Huge hugs, Lynn 💖
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The emotions do take us up and down. Walking is good, and the flowers come around. (K)
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Thanks so much K!
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Don’t ever stop!! Missed you, my friend!!!
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Thanks so much Alice! I am trying to fight back and keep going, it’s hard as you know! xoxo
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Your path has been a tremendous Leap of faith dear Lynz.. and I know how ever many rocks you encounter, you have courage to stride purposely over them to a place of safety and sanctuary
We missed you too..
Love and Blessings..
Take care of YOU
Love Sue xxx ❤
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I hope I can dear Sue! Taking a walk is quite a chore xxxxx But I will keep going
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Sending Love and Healing thoughts dear Lynz xxx
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Thank you for those important thoughts! xxx
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you are most welcome Lynz
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This is very lovely, very heartfelt, very touching and you, my dear friend, are very talented indeed. Know it!! Xx
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You are so kind
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Truthful xx
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Thanks sweet Fiona xxx miss you
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You too dearest friend xxx
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Beautiful Lynn. Continue the walking and trust yourself, you are strong.
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Thanks I will try xxx
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Today you wrote. And visited. And I’m glad of it. For you. And for us.
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Thank you! I hope I can keep it up! you are so sweet!
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🙂 Thank YOU. You are a warrior with a heart.
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Thank you for your love and encouragement! It means so much xx
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Oh Sweet Lynn – what a heartfelt, touching post. You are such a gifted writer in expressing emotions – but I am so sorry you are feeling this anxiety and angst. Keep walking. Keep seeking the beauty and cherishing the special little moments. Hope your kids are all well and you are taking care of yourself. xo Hugs!
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Thanks so much dear Jodi. I will keep trying. xo
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I love to walk you see and feel so much when you walk and I can smell the honeysuckle..intoxicating..we miss you 🙂
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Thank you so very much xx
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Lynn
I understand how you feel, facing situations in my life right now. I think for a time, keeping the routine is good as advised above- it keeps your sanity and also tells you that at least somethings haven’t changed.
I can’t advise any more as I am going through it myself but a big hug especially for you from me.
Susie
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I am sorry that you are going through this dear Susie! huge hugs to you xxx
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Thank you Lynn.
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xxx
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So lovely Lynn 🙂 You are amazing. x
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Thanks lynne! xxxxxxx
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Beautiful Lynn – I too have been away but downsizing, packing, moving and unpacking for the past two months. It’s good to be back and good to see you too 🙂
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So good to see you xx
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I am glad to see you back, Lynn. One step at time, my friend, and take time to smell the roses on the way. Walking and writing is good therapy so keep going. Your beautiful family loves you and we love you too. Sending oodles of hugs.
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Thanks so very much dear friend xoxoxo love those hugs
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Wonderful writing Lynn! Keep writing! Big hugs to you my friend!
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Thanks dear PJ! xxx
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xoxox
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xoxo
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Dearest Lynn. First, you are an amazing writer – I could feel how the anxiety was “taking over” the beautiful walk – but you didn’t let it – and you kept going!!! This earth life is hard – and I so appreciate your real disclosure – and I appreciate that your kids will know your honesty of feeling. I think we try to make the world seem “better” for our kids’ sake, but it truly is a struggle. I think for everybody. On some level. Hugs and love to you always, sweet Lynn! ❤
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Thanks so much dear Cathy! xxx
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It tears at my heart to think of the rocks you encountered in order for you transform them into your beautiful poetry. ❤ always, Lynn.
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Thank you! You are so kind xx
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So beautiful Lyn!!!
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xxx
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What beautiful words Lynn! Your way with words is amazing, just remarkable. Please keep writing, it is very inspiring sweetie! xoxo
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Thanks so much, I will try xoxoxoxoxo Hope the food cart is a huge success
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Me too, ha! xoxo
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Loved this!🌺
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Thanks so much xx
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Everything that’s been said already Lynn. We look forward to your posts no matter how few, or far between, they may be. Keep taking the photos, keep walking, keep telling us of your progress, and keep revelling in the support of your marvellous children. Hugs. 🤗
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Thanks so much Peter. I am doing my best and I really appreciate your kind words! hugs are always so welcome xx
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I love your writing Lynn. This is so heart felt and touching. Just beautiful!
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Thanks so much for reading Anotnia! xxx
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I had the opportunity to re-visit the peaceful Catskills where I grew up and left for college in 1980. As we traversed and flew down the rolling hills, did I find peace? Things have changed so much as property has been sold, divided but the mountains remain: steadfast and strong as the family who raised me. My parents have passed away and my family is scattered but good memories remain. Somehow the difficult times have been forgotten. I hope you will remember the good times.
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Thank you!
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Your writing is beautiful and full of emotion, my friend. ❤
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I’ve been thinking of you, Lynn. I hope you’re doing well. Hugs to you! xx
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