Afraid of flowers

I have not been around much lately. I miss you all and think about you often. 

Rocks clicked beneath my feet, each one a tiny reminder that I was alive, present and accounted for.  The vow to continue a steady pace without looking back would be broken numerous times, bringing shame and despair. Inspecting branches, grassy areas and fields that spilled out onto the trail were now part of the new walking routine. A carefree bush became a supposed breeding ground for squirrels, raccoons and insects, all a threat to my existence.

This was the path I had taken for the past 7 years and each turn was well known to me, but somehow things had morphed and danger lurked. A dog barked in the big blue house, he jumped frantically as if to warn of impending danger. I shuddered and contemplated returning home to relative solace and yet a lingering determination remained. I watched the road with great caution and anticipation, scanning both front and then back, breaking my promise to just walk.

I compelled myself to breathe, to take in the sprawling fields of green and brown dotted with red barns, grain silos and a single tractor. The sky was a pure blue, a painted backdrop to this scene of tranquility. A rush of warm and soft emotion prompted tears that lodged in the creases of tired eyes. Safety and assurance felt like melting snow that turned into soft green grass, the scent of lilacs and honeysuckle played in my mind pushing it to recall forgotten days. The lawn swing creaked as it joyfully rose to the sky, melted popsicles stained my lips a vivid orange.

Blessings

This past Saturday my middle child graduated from University. When we arrived 8 years ago he was 15, had never been to English school and did not have the necessary academic tools to help him succeed. He struggled as many students do, he thought of quitting, it was a difficult time period for all of us.

My children don’t like being in the spotlight and so I will not give the details of his long journey. I will just say, he never gave up and has earned his Bachelor’s degree, found a great job and will be moving away in a few weeks. I feel so many emotions but the one that stands out is– pride. He is an amazing young man, son, brother, uncle, grandson and human being!

The lesson– Never give up.

 

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The Palouse

A few weeks ago we drove up the narrow, windy road of Steptoe Butte. The view was amazing and stretched for miles.  Yesterday we decided to visit Kamiak Butte which entails a hike up to the top, without the scary drive! The landscape was dotted with trees and Spring flowers and off in the distance we could see our little town. I hope you enjoy our part of the world.

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